The Project:
One Mustang directly off the range, One Trainer, Many Students, Communication through body language, Tools used only for safety, never to train
The Goal:
To discover how far Equestrian Art can be developed solely using body language.
Missing, Wanting, and Dreaming
“Dreams”
“Hold onto Dreams
For if dreams die
Life is like a broken-winged bird
That cannot fly.
Hold fast to dreams
For when dreams go
Life is a barren field
Frozen with snow.”
Langston Hughes
This blog is recognition, that in all the joy and wonder and awe that making a movie contains, there is also a yearning and a hunger for the original work that created the movie.
This is a recognition that missing, wanting, and dreaming are vital and beautiful in their own way.
I am thrilled beyond belief that “Taming Wild” has made it into its butterfly stage of a movie. I am excited to share it in Seattle on the big screen this week. I am thrilled I get to stand on stage with mic in hand and play at questions and answers and theory, batting words back and forth with old friends and new.
This movie has a life of its own to revel in and watch with joy as it inspires people to follow their own dreams with their own horses.
I find myself also, in this long evolution of making a movie, missing the caterpillar stages of the project – the slow, long hours with Myrnah where we poured hours and hours into each other in an endeavor with an unknown outcome.
I find myself wanting more time with my fingers in fur and less time with them tapping away at a keyboard.
I find myself dreaming of what comes next, and yet more simply than that, I find myself dreaming of time lost in the flow of BEING with horses. That way of losing time is so very precious to me.
This week I had a rare day in which there were no lessons to teach, no travel calling me away, and the movie business needed a little less attention. The rain paused for a few hours and I grabbed hold of my chance to get back to the work I love.
Myrnah and I spent an hour moving together, practicing our skills and remembering what together felt like. I had a million things more I wanted to do and feel and remember with her; and then she told me it was naptime, lying down in the pea gravel, dropping her nose to the ground, shutting her eyes, and drifting off to dream land.
I could have pushed her back to work; I could have made action more important that stillness. However, that is not this work we do together. Dreaming is every bit as important as doing. Wanting is every bit as important as having. Missing is poignantly beautiful.
So I curled up next to Myrnah, feeling the heat of her body emanate through me against the chill of the day, and we both fell asleep.
There will be more days full of riding, galloping down trails, exploring new places, honing movements together and building the intensity of the things we can do.
Some days though, are just for curling up and dreaming about what might be ahead.
Enjoy your success.
Enjoy your dreaming.
Enjoy your missing of things you hold dear.
That chrysalis of longing is so very beautiful in its own way.
Hold it tenderly until it is ready to become the work and the evolution we long for.
Myrnah and I send you all our love in your dreaming.
Elsa Sinclair
EquineClarity.com
TamingWild.com
3 Comments
Love this!!
so very very lovely–I am so missing my beloved late parents as the holidays approach and I truly love your words about the sacredness in my missing them….such a beautiful reminder that all that we experience has value and a place in our emotional palette and heart. I am so eager to see you Wednesday in Issaquah. I spent alot of time in that area growing up with my Grandmother at Lake Sammamish and then later as an adult doing antique shows at the old barn in the center of the city…..so I know just being there will stir much emotion, especially during the holiday season…. Blessings, Connie
Wise Myrnah! Sometimes doing nothing and going to sleep is the very best thing that could be done at that moment. Wise Elsa for agreeing with her! What a lovely picture you paint of drifting off to dreamland together ….Zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz………….. I am sure there will be nobody enjoying big zeds at the movie theatre tonight and tomorrow. Wishing you a wonderful couple of evenings recalling the whole project with Myrnah and looking forward to BEING with horses again whilst the rest of us follow your ideas from your inspiring film. Can’t wait to see it!!!
Kind Regards
Gary